if u think u're in pain, i hold ur heart close to mine... and i tell u ... "im with you".

promo results out. and im sure im gonna retain if my gp teacher's not helping me. i duno. LOST. not sure to stay on in jc or go poly. was sms-ing gannie every minute. discussin our results n wad should we do. i really duno wad to do if i get PROMOTED OR RETAINED. with such pathetic grades, i dun think i can sit for As next yr. if i retain, am i certain i wana face a new grp of frens n environment? moreover, wastin one yr? i duno. the problem is... i dun even get the chance to discuss with my family. ok fine. wad family is there? they dun even understand my plight. wad the shit am i studyin for? MYSELF. no pressure from parents. they duno wad's the education system about. its me. alone. facin everythg. wad do they noe? education is a BIg form of wastin money. not onli wastin money, its also wastin ur time to earn money. to them, makin money is everythg in the world. if i vanish, prolly i can save lots of money for them? i shud give it a try... y dun they understand? im the 1st child who's undergoin JC ... my bro went poly. no choice, no chance. when i got back Os results earlier this yr, i was thinkin to go poly or jc. i tot jc was a better route for me. i nv knew the stress it was comin my way. moreover, without parents' support, family encouragement, i felt myself droppin to the grd. nobody bother pickin me up. i left myself to rot.

i cried my eyes out. i dun wan to cry. but tears were juz uncontrollable. wad more can i do? frens crowdin round me, tellin me wad's best for me... encouragin me. Thanz weilyn, giant, pok, ct, simin, zhining, vette, xinying.

i had bad results n i dun need ppl to jeer at me to tell me that. i had the urge to throw sth at ur face. if onli eggs were near me... u wld have long been an ass covered with raw eggs. sometimes i hate u. sometimes i adore u. but sometimes u really push me to the limits. i canot take this anymore. im goin crazy. juz becos of u. must u be this cruel?

went to have lunch with the gals. accompanied giant to town to shop. eyes were tired. but i promised giant the dae before. promises are NOT meant to be broken. guys readin my blog... REM promises are NOT meant to be broken. i hate it when ppl say things and do it differently. the disappointment n despair... INDESCribable. giant bot loads of giodano clothes. happy liao la... happened to see darren tan in the same store and he came forward lettin us noe its his bdae... and able to have discount. lol. how nice of him! thanz darren. had ice cream with giant... thanz giant. oh yeah... saw kiat yong near cine juz now. hmmm had a nice time with giant before she left to meet ant. =) love ya. oh yeah speaking of promises... finally remembered where i heard the sentence from... as in a scene from Zhen Qing. the auntie(duno wad name) was like shoppin for alot of stuff for someone ... cos she promised that fella she wld get them for that fella. and the auntie din do that... she must have regretted n do it now. aiyah hope u understand. nvm. in chinese it sounds better leh. try my best to translate. "promise someone liao must go n do it rite awae, if keep procrastinating... the dae will never arrive."

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart
You'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still... forever