IM SAD. DARN REAL SAD. life's boring for me ok... everydae go tamp rot. LOL. literally rot sia. and im so darn FAT. *sigh*. was supposed to go joggin with Kor yesterdae but he got to work OT. haiz. why cant i lead a life i like!!!! BLEAH. my mind was actually made up. i wana go poly. but my jc fren told me to work hard and surely i can make it... well, at least my vice cap of sailin team say... leave after the nationals... haiz. u think i wana leave the team meh? i miss sailing. real bad. HAIZ.


why cant i have a powerful brain. why cant i be mroe hardworkin. can someone tell me wad i really want? i really hope one fine dae i noe wad i can do... and wad i want in life. not juz a normal job? i duno. oh god. no pain no gain. i seriously duno wad i've been doin these months. i've spent a yr in tpjc and wad the hell have i gotten outta it? besides playin and sailin, i think i did nth much. i nv really understood the lectures n tutorials. chem is juz like a buzzin bee that buzz thru the entire semester. haiz. i really duno. so wad if i pass my As. i dun have the confidence of scoring good grades to get into a course i wan! ah well. wad the fuck. com'on! i dun even noe wad i wana be next time. why in the world i chose chem as a sub i wana take. im NOT gonna be a chemist or a scientist or doctor next time. wad a crappy combi i took. dun u agree? econs ... wad the hell. i dun mind being an economist... but it's surely a darn boring and dead thing to do. look at the econs tutors. THEY ALL SUCK. LIKE SHIT. why in the world i chose to go tpjc? i might as well gone poly in the 1st place... it makes me so she bu de sailin... *SIGH*


i wana do something i like... i gotta have the passion for it. but i ask myself. wad do i like? not some stuff that i can survive on it. HAIZ. i duno I DUNO. i really feel like burstin now. bye.


sorry for the sad n irritatin entry. su, if u readin... give me some advice. HAIZ.