i blogged sth abt the mind game.

latest update.

i've won half of it already. scream for fernie!!!

=)


sometimes, i really do hope im ignorant. sometimes. just sometimes.
im winning, yet losing. how should i put it?


friday nite was all lonely n moodless. met up with jessica at city hall. but ps-ed her. cos serene's in hosp. den samuel came met up with me, and we head down to SGH with vich. both couples there. i was the odd one out. din want to go. but was thinkin if u're in hosp, u would want ppl to visit u n bring u smiles n joy rite? so i went. was all sianed. and felt horrible. what's mood.
went home drink by myself, and slam myself to bed.

saturday morning woke up very early. started bakin choco chip cookies. very nice. =) went for tuition at 11am... den travelled all the way to sembawang sunplaza for baking class. met june n i somehow learn quite a few new recipes. =) went to woodlands and took 966, the long bus journey home. couldnt help but tears flowed. alone with my mp 3. head home n rested while. lionel's parents came pick me up and sent us to cosy bay. thank god his mom talked to me abit here n there. and thank god they came n fetch me. cos i think i'll jus ruin lionel's mood if i were to meet him alone. hais. went cosy bay. and i guess i was almost breakin down.

teeth chattering, whole body shivering, tears flowed, red swollen nose, bloodshot eyes. wad a horrible scene. all i could do was to lean against lionel n cry. he asked several times before. wad's with me? i din reply. i smiled n say, nothing's wrong.

seriously, nothing's wrong. the fault lies with me. this is when i think i've not won the battle at all. lionel was just there for me to lean on, a shoulder to cry on. nope, i nv tell him anythg about it. nobody knows except...

now, wad can i do. heed everyone's advice? i shall.

anyway, im not upset abt anythg. jus AFFECTED.



i went to market this morning. both wet n super. haha. got yam, and coconut. later gonna make or nee! yummy!!!