its ironic. you told me how you want a family to be. yet i come home feeling empty. or rather the house being empty. you told me how disgusting it is. yet you guys celebrated her birthday in a ktv lounge.

let me understand you, will you?

instead of u shouting and threatening, you should ask what i want.

i just want some fucking love.

im cryin as im typing this. you'll never see this so there's no point in pennin everythg now.

i love you, as a father. but let me respect you ok?
i know its not easy bringing up 5 kids. i know its not easy paying for the house, cars, electricity bills, hp bills, education fees and loads and loads of daily expenses.
i really wish i can turn time back. let me do my part being a daughter.
talk to me, will you?
it hurts. really.

i apologised.




and wad's with everyone hiding things from me?
im ur only daughter. why afraid to tell me?
u're worried bout me. im worried bout you.
i know, u got him to take care of me.
you din want anythg to happen to me.
i understand all.
i refused to talk to you becos i want you to tell me.
im the youngest but i do understand you know.
sighs.




enough of merry making.



let me be a fillial daughter.
let me be the one that walk with you for the rest of ur life.
let me be the one to provide u a shelter.
let me be the one to chat with u til ur hair turns grey.






the hangover hurts.
physically and mentally.

just why did i... ...