I totally can understand how Fern feels when people give her solutions that they assume is best for her, but really, we should never assume. And well, you’re not in her shoes, so don’t pass insensitive statements without thinking about it.

Fuck being politically correct, fuck all that wishy-washy emotions.



Get it? Im having a sever headache. Headache from excessive thinking and thinking and thinking and yet I didn't come up with any feasible solution.

I just want to escape. I just want to kill myself NOW. LIKE NOW. FUCK IT.


On another note, I feel good after Pump and Attack. Its really nice to see 2 bubbly instructors leading the team to a full workout. I did a 7 KG weights today. WHOOTS! Madness, but i am pushing myself to do better. Yay yay yay, i think my body is stronger now! Mentally too! Except triceps, gotta work doubly hard on those bye-bye arms! If I could turn forth time... I wanna be 30 years old with stable job, and be doing things I want to do. =)


I have identified new goals and few objectives in my life now. Will bring myself to greater heights, i suppose?